goodbye

the end of tour..very emotional. it isn't over quite yet i have a week left but i've been in a sad mood lately and sometimes it shows more than others. i actually had a mini breakdown in OKC and cried for three hours over stupid things as well as sadness over being replaced and sadness of having to leave something great.

i have felt very liberated in the 6 months i have been away from college, my friends and everything i know. i feel like i've experienced so much of the real world it kind of feels surreal that i'll be thrust back into the college life where everything is a tiny bubble. in the 6 months i've been away I've been to Australia with John Mayer and I've visited over 40 something states i've never been to and i've met some of the most incredible people along the way.

i made an amazing friend, Jeff DiPesa on this BK tour. he's ben's guitar tech/stage manager and was my roommate for most of the tour and my buddy and hangout buddy on this tour. life will be so much sadder without him in front of me everyday. i will have to come visit him in tulsa because i will suffer from withdrawals. i also met some amazing new musicians who i can honesty call my friends. The Sullivans aka Tim Fite. Google the man. He makes strong statements with his music and I love him. My weekends in NY will probably be filled with visits to the Sullivans. The people i've met have been so great, so cool and hopefully my path with cross their paths again.

back to school will be really sad. I have a flight to DC booked for the 8th and a flight to austin booked for the 14th. haha..I promise i'll be at school more often after September..i hope I can take it. it'll be really weird.

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lost my wallet in florida.
add that to the other reasons of why i hate fl.
when we were in tampa here is what i saw: tattoo shops, bar, tattoo shops, bar, tattoo shops, bar. ughh. what a bunch of yuppies.

the one nice thing i did in florida was go swimming at night with Tim Fite, Greg Fite, and my roomie/guitar tech Jeff. it was a little scary swimming in the dark ocean..i was afraid a jellyfish or shark would come get me. haha. we also went swimming in the morning and it was nicer and i loved looking at the clear water and splashing against the waves.

while the boys (ben kweller and band) left to go play a private part in San Fran, Tim , Greg and I drove all the way to GA...where i lost my wallet at a grocery store..we searched the entire store for like 1.5 hours and nobody returned it!!! we made announcements on the PA and everything and I was very depressed because it is a rare wallet that i found at a street market in NYC and definitely one of a kind plus it had my ID and all my credit cards/debit card as well my health insurance cards and gift cards I got form my birthday. I was seriously sad for 3 hours. then Tim and Greg cheered me up a bit and they paid for me to eat and everything is going to be ok.

tomorrow we're going to new orleans and i am so excited because I've never been and we get a day off too!!!!!! so i'm so happy and i have some money now so yayy. and now the boys are back. i really loved having a bench in the van to myself but i also missed them all so much. it is crazy. sitting in a van with 7 boys can be gross and disgusting at times but i really do love it.

Atlanta

i'm in atlanta for 4 whole days. yay. i really love atlanta but it is friggin' hot. we drove from new york to here in a van with broken AC in august..umm yes i t was hell and i kind of hated it. and i felt like i was dying. it is like camping in aug and it was grossssssss. it felt nicer outside than it did in our van. it was nice to be able to shower at the end of the night. oh hotel rooms.

lately there have been some mix ups so i've been able to get my own room and it has been nice! i <3 my roomie is great but he sleeps in his skivvies and it can be cute but at the same time i loovee alone time and not having to wake up to a half naked boy..haha that's supposed to be good in some people's books but he doesn't have red hair (cept in his beard) and he's hairy. haha..hairy boys ain't my thang.

i love stopping in the different states and listening to changes in accents. like when we stopped at West virginia it was really funny. We were looking for a Best Buy and this little boy wearing a John Deere shirt showed us directions and his dad knocked him upside the head as a "job well done son!" for knowing where it was..haha. i was gigglng in the back of the van.

then we stopped for lunch at north carolina and my meal was 4 dollars..and so was everyone elses and they had pot roast with mac and cheese and mashed potatoes and we all almost cried because 3.95 gets you a Tall coffee in NYC. ha.

on tuesday we are playing at the variety playhouse...in october the variety playhouse was where Ben asked me to work for him so it holds special meaning to me. almost a year ago was when my chance, this chance came and it was really great to think about what i've been able to do this past year. willy mason, a name you prob haven't heard of in awhile is opening tonight. he was really surprised to see me and we chatted while i set up about how this came about and the upcoming tour with each other. what a difference four year makes really. and even just one year.

tomorrow i'm going to the waterpark to try to cool off. it'll be fun.